One year since cancer diagnosis - June 2016
Monday, July 3, 2017
Sunday, July 2, 2017
Lessons Learned (Part 2)
When my mom passed away two years ago February 2017 I went into a time of extreme quiet where I did very little posting on Facebook or other social media outlets. I did very little talking in general to anyone except very close friends, my husband and my kids. During this time I did quite a bit of reflecting. I did a lot of praying and talking to God. I was trying to understand why my mom was taken from us. God used this time to teach me about who He was to me, who I was with and without my mom, and who I am in His eyes. ( I have talked about this in previous blog posts.)
I again felt like God was leading me toward a time of quietness. And again this time it was not of my choosing but by His leading that I entered this quiet time of my life. In June of 2016 I was diagnosed with stage 0 breast cancer. This was not a season I willingly entered into. I knew God had things to teach me and in order for me to hear His voice I had to turn down the volume in my life. He ask me to be still. To just sit at His feet. To just listen to Him and glory in His presence. This was very hard considering I am a mom to two beautiful children, a wife, and a part-time preschool teacher. We live our lives at a fast pace. As mom and wife I attempt to juggle many different tasks at once and try to fill many different spaces for my family. I had to surrender to many hours of being still as I recovered from surgery. I spent much of the time just listening to the Lord's voice as I read His word, prayed and communed with Him.
From June 2016 to January 2017 I under went three biopsies, two MRIs, one ultrasound, numerous doctor visits, a genetic test, a double mastectomy surgery with immediate reconstruction and the placement of expanders, recovery from the initial surgery, a reconstruction surgery to place implants and recovery from the reconstruction surgery. My two surgeries were 3 months apart. That's a lot for a person to undergo and wrap your mind around. Let alone a body to absorb and recover from. So needless to say there was a lot to contemplate and lots of down time to be still. Some people (including me at times) might have seen this quiet season in their life as boring and frustrating and I did at times. But with God'saw grace He helped me to see this as a chance to sit at the Lords feet and just soak up His goodness, mercy and love.
When God leads us into those valley or desert places He does it for the purpose of teaching us and making us more like Him. It's not because He is mean or spiteful. It's because He loves us so much and desires for us to be like Him but He knows in His infinite wisdom that sometimes the only way He can knock off some of our sins nature and surrender to Him is to turn down the volume of our life, to close some doors until all we have is Him. When we are left with ways to handle life on our own we will. But God desires for us to call out to Him and need Him in ways only He can fill.
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28 KJV
http://bible.com/1/rom.8.28.KJV
Not all things that God uses in our life are good. But He will use all these things good and bad to bring us closer to His image and to deepen our relationship with Him and our knowledge of Him. Many times we will we will never understand the why. But it is and the way we react to those times determines how we are affected and how we come out the other side of these times.
I again felt like God was leading me toward a time of quietness. And again this time it was not of my choosing but by His leading that I entered this quiet time of my life. In June of 2016 I was diagnosed with stage 0 breast cancer. This was not a season I willingly entered into. I knew God had things to teach me and in order for me to hear His voice I had to turn down the volume in my life. He ask me to be still. To just sit at His feet. To just listen to Him and glory in His presence. This was very hard considering I am a mom to two beautiful children, a wife, and a part-time preschool teacher. We live our lives at a fast pace. As mom and wife I attempt to juggle many different tasks at once and try to fill many different spaces for my family. I had to surrender to many hours of being still as I recovered from surgery. I spent much of the time just listening to the Lord's voice as I read His word, prayed and communed with Him.
From June 2016 to January 2017 I under went three biopsies, two MRIs, one ultrasound, numerous doctor visits, a genetic test, a double mastectomy surgery with immediate reconstruction and the placement of expanders, recovery from the initial surgery, a reconstruction surgery to place implants and recovery from the reconstruction surgery. My two surgeries were 3 months apart. That's a lot for a person to undergo and wrap your mind around. Let alone a body to absorb and recover from. So needless to say there was a lot to contemplate and lots of down time to be still. Some people (including me at times) might have seen this quiet season in their life as boring and frustrating and I did at times. But with God'saw grace He helped me to see this as a chance to sit at the Lords feet and just soak up His goodness, mercy and love.
When God leads us into those valley or desert places He does it for the purpose of teaching us and making us more like Him. It's not because He is mean or spiteful. It's because He loves us so much and desires for us to be like Him but He knows in His infinite wisdom that sometimes the only way He can knock off some of our sins nature and surrender to Him is to turn down the volume of our life, to close some doors until all we have is Him. When we are left with ways to handle life on our own we will. But God desires for us to call out to Him and need Him in ways only He can fill.
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:28 KJV
http://bible.com/1/rom.8.28.KJV
Not all things that God uses in our life are good. But He will use all these things good and bad to bring us closer to His image and to deepen our relationship with Him and our knowledge of Him. Many times we will we will never understand the why. But it is and the way we react to those times determines how we are affected and how we come out the other side of these times.
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